- its almost 6 am & am still awake -

It is almost 6 am and I am still awake.. I am listenin to (Passion Play by William Fitzsmmons) great song btw.. newyz I have been thinking about a lot of stuff in the last few hours.. I started thinking about things that I tried not to think about.. I actually didn’t have the time for as I had a lot of uni work that needed to be done..

A lot has changed lately.. and I guess I have changed as well.. I have been through a lot of stuff lately.. good and bad.. a lot of things have happened.. things that I never saw coming.. but you know what hurts the most.. what hurts the most is to hear something from someone who u loved so much.. you see I am a person who forgives BUT NEVER FORGETS.. and when people do somethn to me I forgive them.. but never forget what they did or said.. and what hurts me the most is when a close person tells you something that you never expected to hear it from them.. some people just disappoint you.. and that all that there is to it..

Lately ive lost contacting some people who I never thought I would… you know when something happens between you and someone who is close to you and then you keep trying to be like b4 but it just cant happen!! Its because that person just hurt you so bad.. life is just full of surprises I suppose.. and I gotta go with the flow.. that doesn’t mean life is bad or anything like that.. nopes!! It just means that life is tough and we really have to learn somethn each day and take each day as it comes.. living it and NEVER EXPECT SO MUCH FROM ANYONE.. setting high expectations for people is something that I stopped doin a while ago..

I do have faith in people.. but I do believe that people can make mistakes and some people will need other people to guide them.. I haven’t given up on alotta people that I have around me..i never will.. but the ones who have shown me that they are not even trying.. I don’t want them in my life!! Harsh yeah I know! But really..i don’t.. anything that would never put a smile on ma face and just makes me sad is outta ma life.. and every person should do the same thing I suppose!! People who would compromise whats between you and them just like that and don’t have faith in it or more importantly not have faith in you are people you don’t need…


I don’t know what the hell I just wrote up there but I guess it is a part of growing up=P.... and seeing things differently as I grow up each day.. I don’t know what is going to happen next.. but I know inshallah its only happiness.. coz whatever will happen now I’ll always make sure I look into the bright side.. and will never let anything upset me.. coz life is just too short..

Long post I know!!
TaTa!!!!
Loushiiiiiii!!!

- an Open Book -

I am an open book as everyone knows, or maybe everyone thinks so... They seem to think that I say everything and I do say a lot but not everything.... there are maybe few things that I just don’t say.. I mean a person just CANT blurt EVERYTHING out.. BUT I DO say a lot about my self.. and when I say a lot I do mean A LOT..
when I was kid at home I will stay in my room and not say anything to anyone, whatever happened in the house I never interfered in it.. I always minded my own business and barely spoke to anyone. As lame as this might sound I used to write everything in ma diary!! lol.. and well now when I want to read my diaries! Unfortunately I cant really tell what’s written coz I had and still have a VERY bad hand writing!! lol!!
Later on when I grew up more around 14 15 years old I really changed.. and started to be a blabber mouth and I just talked A LOT AND I still do =P … I just don’t like keeping anything in me.. b4 when anyone used to upset me I never said anything about it and just kept it inside me.. never showed anyone my emotions and how I felt!! But in the last 2 yrs I started saying to people how I feel and when somethn upsets me I say it.. which I think btw is VERY WRONG.. I mean I never showed anyone any emotions b4.. my entire family thinks that am a cold hearted person and that I simply don’t give a shit!! i do care but I don’t show it.. and I really want to go back to NOT saying everythin about ma self.. like say stuff but gotta keep A HUGE AMOUNT OF INFO FOR MA SELF…
A lot of people have been telling me that being an open book isn’t good.. and its better to not say everything.. I actually don’t say everything… I really don’t,, but coz I talk a lot people assume that I say everything.. lol..

Here is a question to ask.. being an open book.. good or bad?!!
I mean wuld u really like being around a friend who barely talks!!!! ?lol.. I mean come on.. that’s not good..lol maybe to me only..

TaTa..

Loushiii

-Farewell 2006..& HELLO ROCKING 2007 –

Before anything.. HAPPY NEW YR EVERYO ONE!! I know ur thinking “what the hell is wrong with u its already the 7th of jan too late gurl” well yeah this is me =P!!

2006 was a ROCKING YEAR.. it really was.. it wasn’t like any other year.. and especially summer! SUMMER 2006 kicked ass all previous summers.. a lot have happened this summer.. things happened that I never thought would!! Summer 2006 needs an entire post by it self..

They say the way you spend your new year’s eve is how you will spend the rest of the yr.. and I have absolute faith in that statement.. last new years eve I spend it with one of ma best friends.. to me she’s ma soul mate.. A.. and thank God me and her spent most of 2006 together.. and this years new year’s eve I spent it with the people who I care about the most and love after ma parents.. my friends.. I was with A, Noora and N.A.O.. and then jojo joined.. we had an amaaazing time at Madinat jumeirah..it was nice I was with the people who I cared about... I wish this year I will be spending it mostly with them as well.. =) THANK YOU GURLS FOR EVERYTHING.. ME LUV YAW..

You know, that night I came to really realize who are ma TRUE friends.. I mean I thought I had a lot of close friends.. yea I do.. but I mean when it turned 12 am.. no one called me exactly 12.. u know like who will call u and tell ya “Happy new yr” I guess that only happens if a person has a gf or a bf!! And in ma case I don’t!! lol.. but that night gave me a clear image.. and showed me who ma true friends are..=) and I guess that that’s enough for me..

In 2006.. Ive lost contact with a lot of people.. and i met a lot of new people..this makes me wonder who would stick around as days pass by.. inshallah everyone will.. I hope..

2007.. am sure a lot will happen in this year.. I have absolutely no clue.. but I am sure that good things inshalah will happen.. and hope that ma best friends will always be in my life and forever..

tata…
Loushi..