- its almost 6 am & am still awake -

It is almost 6 am and I am still awake.. I am listenin to (Passion Play by William Fitzsmmons) great song btw.. newyz I have been thinking about a lot of stuff in the last few hours.. I started thinking about things that I tried not to think about.. I actually didn’t have the time for as I had a lot of uni work that needed to be done..

A lot has changed lately.. and I guess I have changed as well.. I have been through a lot of stuff lately.. good and bad.. a lot of things have happened.. things that I never saw coming.. but you know what hurts the most.. what hurts the most is to hear something from someone who u loved so much.. you see I am a person who forgives BUT NEVER FORGETS.. and when people do somethn to me I forgive them.. but never forget what they did or said.. and what hurts me the most is when a close person tells you something that you never expected to hear it from them.. some people just disappoint you.. and that all that there is to it..

Lately ive lost contacting some people who I never thought I would… you know when something happens between you and someone who is close to you and then you keep trying to be like b4 but it just cant happen!! Its because that person just hurt you so bad.. life is just full of surprises I suppose.. and I gotta go with the flow.. that doesn’t mean life is bad or anything like that.. nopes!! It just means that life is tough and we really have to learn somethn each day and take each day as it comes.. living it and NEVER EXPECT SO MUCH FROM ANYONE.. setting high expectations for people is something that I stopped doin a while ago..

I do have faith in people.. but I do believe that people can make mistakes and some people will need other people to guide them.. I haven’t given up on alotta people that I have around me..i never will.. but the ones who have shown me that they are not even trying.. I don’t want them in my life!! Harsh yeah I know! But really..i don’t.. anything that would never put a smile on ma face and just makes me sad is outta ma life.. and every person should do the same thing I suppose!! People who would compromise whats between you and them just like that and don’t have faith in it or more importantly not have faith in you are people you don’t need…


I don’t know what the hell I just wrote up there but I guess it is a part of growing up=P.... and seeing things differently as I grow up each day.. I don’t know what is going to happen next.. but I know inshallah its only happiness.. coz whatever will happen now I’ll always make sure I look into the bright side.. and will never let anything upset me.. coz life is just too short..

Long post I know!!
TaTa!!!!
Loushiiiiiii!!!